Monday, January 28, 2008

Peace that surpasses all understanding...

It's amazing how much peace you have when you wait and actually allow God to orchestrate everything. I have had such a hard time doing that in the past... when things didn't happen exactly the way that I wanted, in the time that I wanted, I would just take it into my own hands. I always felt anxious and uneasy because I knew deep down that I wasn't allowing God to do what was best for us. Now, anxiety is part of who I am so it comes no matter what, but I have so much peace right now. It's hard to put it into words. I guess that's what Paul was talking about in Philippians when he said, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, present your requests to God. And the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." I'm finally starting to get this! For those of you who are struggling and don't know what direction to go... or if you have an idea of the direction but know nothing about the details... pray and wait! God will show you when it's time!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

After 2 1/2 months of waiting...

God has answered our prayers, and it is really the perfect timing for many reasons. We are going back to the camp that we worked at before we moved to San Marcos. We have learned and grown so much over the past 1 1/2 years... so we don't regret any minute of being in San Marcos. I have a completely different perspective that I'm bringing to the camp this time (much more kingdom minded), and I'm very excited about God being glorified. There are so many details that I'm excited about that don't really matter in the big scheme of things... but God is amazing and orchestrated this so perfectly. Not only are we going to be living in an amazing house, we get insurance again, and Robert gets retirement. Plus, he gets vacation (which will come in handy when this baby is born!) and holidays again. Everything that we took for granted, God is allowing us to have those back. We will appreciate them so much more now than ever before. Also, some good friends of ours will be there (Clay and Jackie!)! There will be a female that is close to my age this time :). That is a huge deal! Robert will be doing what he's passionate about- Outdoor Ed and Recreation! I will be able to stay home until August at least... we'll see what's going to happen past that. I will probably look for a teaching job in the area. One day at a time, though! I'm learning to just enjoy today!
Robert and I have decided that we are going to stay (Lord willing) for a long time. We want to be settled... doing something that we (I) know now God has called us to do. It won't be easy, but I've learned that life just isn't easy, so I can handle the hard times a little better. Praise God for everything... nothing is through our power, but through His.

Thursday, January 3, 2008


I was telling Robert the other day that it is so hard to know exactly what it is that God wants you to do, but you still have to wait. But, I have finally come to a place in my life in which I know in my heart (not just my head) that God is in control and he has everything planned. I came across this entry in "My Utmost for His Highest" today (it's for tomorrow hehe), and it was perfect.

"There are times that you can't understand why you cannot do what you want to do. When God brings a time of waiting, and appears to be unresponsive, don't fill it with busyness, just wait. The time of waiting may come to teach you the meaning of sanctification- to be set apart from sin and made holy- or it may come after the process of sanctification has begun to teach you what service means. Never run before God gives you His direction. If you have the slightest doubt, then He is not guiding. Whenever there is doubt- wait.At first you may see clearly what God's will is- the severance of a friendship, the breaking off of a business relationship, or something else you feel is distinctly God's will for you to do. But never act on the impulse of that feeling. If you do, you will cause difficult situations to arise which will take years to untangle. Wait for God's timing and He will do it without any heartache or disappointment. When it is a question of the providential will of God, wait for God to move."

There's more, but this says it all to me :).