Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Life is full of uncertainties... praise God that He never changes
Through the uncertainties that we've had lately, we've been praying through some things. One, is God just pruning us and putting us through these hard times so that we can grow to be more like Him and be fruitful? Two, is He pruning us, but also showing us that we are not doing what He has called us to do. Since we moved here, Robert hasn't felt like what he's doing is what he is called to do. He's good at construction, but it's not where his heart is. Over the past few weeks, through some specific situations, we have been questioning if we are where we are supposed to be. When we left the camp, we left because I just thought it was too hard, and wasn't willing to stick through it. Since, I have found out that life is just hard, no matter where you are or what you're doing. Through the hard times, you learn to rely on Jesus and you become more like Him. I am also beginning to learn how to allow my husband to be the leader- submitting to him no matter what. Lately he has been feeling that God is calling us back into camp ministry- where he feels like he has belonged for a long time. We're not really sure what that means right now, where we will go, when, how, anything... we are just praying and checking out the possibilities. A change could happen in a few weeks, a few months, or maybe longer... only God knows right now. I do know that Robert's passion is at camp, and if that's where God wants us, I am willing to go and follow. Since we have moved to San Marcos, we have moved 3 times... to the first 2 bedroom apartment, to the 3 bedroom apartment, and now to the house that we're living in. We have felt unsettled the whole time we've been here. I have applied for I don't know how many different jobs, tried to stay home, tried just about everything. I feel that there is a reason why I don't have a permanent job right now. Of course, there is a reason for everything, whether or not it makes sense to me. So, in the mean time, we're just living life, serving God, praying, not knowing where we're headed.