What Will People Think??

So… this morning I was thinking that maybe I should delete the two posts about my postpartum anxiety.  Maybe I said too much?  Will people judge me?  Will people think that I’m making too big of a deal of this?  If I have a good day, will they think that maybe I’m just overreacting?  AM I overreacting??  Is this just in my head?  Do I just think I have a problem and I really don’t?
Then I started laughing.  Out loud.  I’m pretty sure Robert thought I was crazy.  
Welcome to my brain.  It’s constantly thinking.  Constantly worrying.  Constantly thinking “what will people think?” 
Everyone thinks these things to an extent.  I think about it all the time.
How funny is it that I am anxious about what people will think about me having anxiety?
Galatians 1:10 “For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God?  Or am I trying to please man?  If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.”
Ouch.  I know that worrying about what people think is sin.  Yet, I can’t control it much of the time.  It just pops up in this crazy brain of mine.  All.  The.  Time.
Romans 7:15-8:3 ¹⁵For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. ¹⁶Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. ¹⁷So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. ¹⁸For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. ¹⁹For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. ²⁰Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. ²¹So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. ²²For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, ²³but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. ²⁴Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? ²⁵Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.
¹There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. ²For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. ³For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, ⁴in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
Praise God for His Spirit and the grace that He gives.  Praise God for sending His Son so that I don’t have to stress about my sin, but allow Him to do a work in me.
I am confident that He will deliver me from this struggle in His time (which could be when I am home).  Until then, I will walk in the Spirit and allow Him to give me the power to overcome, day by day.  I am learning to take one. day. at. a. time.

All I Need JJ Heller
"Don’t need a thing
My good Shepherd brings me all
You are all I need
You let me catch my breath
Even in the valley of death
You are all I need

All I need to be complete
Is Your love
Your blood that covers me

You lift up my head
You provide the wine and bread
You, You are all I need

There’s no need to fear
Even with my enemies here
You are all I need

All I need to be complete
Is Your love
Your blood that covers me

Goodness and mercy are following me
You’re all that I need

You make a home for me
Where pastures are green as far as I see
You are all I need

All I need to be complete
Is Your love
Your blood that covers me"