Update on Nursing

Well, after two days of not taking the herbs and just lessening the feedings a bit, my milk supply is next to nothing already.  It's amazing how much the herbs helped... which makes me realize even more that my body just can't breastfeed (at least much).  I still feel a bit sad because Levi enjoys nursing, but it's just way too stressful!  I just wish that my body was normal and produced enough so that I don't even have to make this decision :(.  I pretty much knew this would happen after the first week of him not getting enough (because it happened every time).  Everyone tells me to not be hard on myself because I tried really hard, but I will probably always wonder if I tried hard enough.  Of course, there wasn't much more I could have done.  So, that makes me feel better.  I might try to nurse at night before bed or something; that will be nice for both of us.  We'll see how that goes.  The main benefit of that is closeness... it doesn't really give him much nourishment, but it will continue the breastfeeding relationship even if it's not all the time.  This way it will NOT be frustrating, it will just be nice :).