This blog explains how I feel better than I can: Life as Mom: More Important than Your To Do List.
I've really been struggling because last year was one of the best Christmases that I've had probably since we've been married... and I wanted to do it all again. All homemade gifts (and great ones), Christmas baking, etc. But, it just wasn't possible this year for many reasons and it has been bothering me. But, that's not what Christmas is about anyway. It's about Jesus coming to this earth to be born, live, and die for us. That needs to be what we focus on, despite my desire to have everything perfect. Maybe next year we can try the homemade gifts again. And, if not, oh well.