Saturday, February 8, 2014

Trying to Move Forward- My "New Normal"

Well, I did it.  I got my nose pierced.  And I love it.  I've had some questioning from people, but it doesn't bother me anymore.  I am me.  I can make a decision about a piercing ;-).  Here's a not so good pic... it's kind of weird lighting and hard to see.  But I'm not taking another one ;-).

Robert and my parents were so proud of me for doing this.  Not because they thought I should have a nose ring (well, Robert loves it), but because I'm gaining some confidence.  I'm doing something that I've wanted to do for years but haven't done because I've allowed others to dictate what I did.  

Like I've said in a past post, I'm working on what my life is going to look like now.  I have a "new normal" to get used to.  My "new normal" right now consists of me going to outpatient all day, then coming home and vegging because I'm so worn out.  But I'm working on what life will look like after that.  

I've emailed my old boss about going back to preschool 2-3 days a week next year (we'll see if they have any openings!), I'm working on getting going on my Childbirth Education training (I have to write a paper next!), I'm learning about the Young Living oils and how to run a small business with that, we're looking at our finances (how we'll make it work), and I'm thinking through what I will do once I'm home more :-).  I have many plans, but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. 

It's so hard to just take one day at a time.   

We talk a lot about "grounding" in therapy- which basically means living "here and now."  I struggle with that so much.  I'll get there :-).  

Today I'm going up to school to get my some of my things.  It's bitter sweet.  I'm excited about the future, but I'm also sad that teaching full time is in the past.  I'm thankful that I have had the opportunities that I have, and I know they will be used to bring glory to God in my future.  

Until next time...

1 comment:

Janine Bates said...

I am happy to read your blogs. With faith in God you will make it. I will be praying for you. If I can be any help please let me know. Even if it is just to talk. Sometimes that helps a person so much. Best of luck and God bless.